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It was a lot harder than it sounds, and I did the whole thing with the voice of self-doubt screaming in my head, "They're all going to laugh at you! They're all going to laugh at you! They're all going to laugh at you!" I managed to pin it to a wall in a closet in my head, though, in a disturbing and poetic display of beautiful violence. Seriously, STFU, voice of self-doubt.
What kills me is that it isn't as hard as it sounds, what I'm doing. I've bound books like these before, except for one new variant, and that, I can see in my head clearly enough to do it calmly. That's sleek.
It's just that damn voice. So yeah.
Today, I'm bombarding it with Warren Ellis's taste in music (his daughter's right, it's creepy. This doesn't stop it from having exactly the right bassline to keep my head in the game) and turning on all the lights against the dim of a rainy morning.
Seriously, STFU, voice of self-doubt.
It was a lot harder than it sounds, and I did the whole thing with the voice of self-doubt screaming in my head, "They're all going to laugh at you! They're all going to laugh at you! They're all going to laugh at you!" I managed to pin it to a wall in a closet in my head, though, in a disturbing and poetic display of beautiful violence. Seriously, STFU, voice of self-doubt.
What kills me is that it isn't as hard as it sounds, what I'm doing. I've bound books like these before, except for one new variant, and that, I can see in my head clearly enough to do it calmly. That's sleek.
It's just that damn voice. So yeah.
Today, I'm bombarding it with Warren Ellis's taste in music (his daughter's right, it's creepy. This doesn't stop it from having exactly the right bassline to keep my head in the game) and turning on all the lights against the dim of a rainy morning.
Seriously, STFU, voice of self-doubt.
